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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

What is this garbage with the democratic nominees? Don't they realize that they are doing more harm to their party than good? They need to stop their infighting and start behaving like potential President of the US. I know that Bush did not set the bar real high for what we expect of a president, but still somehow that you would think that these two individuals who are definitely more well educated than the current president could figure all this out.

Now that it seems that Obama has the race sewn up, why is it that Hillary refuses to concede and allow Obama to have the party's nomination? What is it that she is truly trying to hold onto? I mean it is definitely not her dignity. There is no dignity in holding on to this thing too long. She has rallied her supporters and has tried to turn them against Obama. Best I can figure that this was all a strategic plan to split the party and force Obama into taking her on as a running mate. Look at it like this, the Hillary supporters don't like Obama because of all of the bickering and infighting. Now the only way that Obama can win the race is to take Hillary on as a candidate for the vice presidency. If he chooses not to do this, then I would guess that most of the Hillary supporters will vote for McCain, which will make Obama sure to lose in his race for the Presidency. If he takes Hillary on, however, then he not only has all of her supporters on his side, but his as well, which will definitely beat the McCain camp out.

This however, is a no win situation for Obama. There have been no bones made about the fact that Obama and Clinton are both strong figures and both seem to harbor a bit of resentment towards the other. I know that Obama has stated over and over again, what a worthy opponent Hillary Clinton is and what a strong political figure, but I really think that he is just saying this to keep the public flowing with him. I think that the underlying animosity between these two is just a destructive force that we don't need running our country. Let's face it, Hillary doesn't want to be Vice President, she wants to be President, and will probably do everything that she can to undermine his power and take control for herself. I wouldn't be surprised if she tried to do him in, just to get to sit at the head of this country. I am all for women in politics and I know that historically they have been a very powerful driving force in other countries, but I do believe that this woman will destroy our country to further her own devices.

I just think that Obama should take his chances against McCain and keep Hillary off the ticket. By doing this, he will at least insure the fact that if he becomes President, he will actually have some power and say so in the future of this country. The other way, may be deadly for him as well as for the fate of this great nation.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Coincidentally Lynne and I both wound up being off on Saturday night, which never, ever happens. We decided to spend a nice relaxing evening going to dinner and then just spending time together, which we both really enjoy. I drove to dinner at our favorite restaurant, which is barely a restaurant, more of a little bar and grill, but we both like the fact that it is a quiet spot set away from the campus. We had a nice relaxing dinner, and each had a glass of wine, which is not our norm, but we kind of felt like celebrating now that finals are done with and school is out for a while. It was good to spend time and after dinner as we were driving home, I suggested that we just take a ride down to the beach. It was such a nice night, and Lynne didn't have to be at work until Sunday night. I think that she thought I was a little bit out of my mind, but she agreed and we were off. The two hour ride to the beach was a blast. We cranked up the music and stopped for Slurpees and sang most of the ride.

When we got down to the beach we pulled our trustee blanket out of the trunk and set up a little camp on the beach. We sat and talked and walked on the beach. I finally spoke to her about my parents visit as they were coming in this week. She said that she was looking forward to finally meeting them, and seemed excited at the prospect. I on the other hand was a bit more uneasy, but perhaps that was because I knew the fury of the firey dragon that she was about to come face to face with. I talked to her about us moving in together over the summer and she said that would be amazing. I am really glad that we are on the same page about the whole thing. I was a little bit afraid that she would think that I was rushing things a little. We talked about her graduating next spring and how it would affect our relationship. We agreed to cross that bridge as it came without worry, we would find a way to work it out. She really has not decided where she will go after college but I assured her that she was my only real attachment to this school and that I could finish college anywhere. After all, since I have not landed on a major yet, that would make transferring really simple. Well, we talked and talked and talked some more. I think we dozed off for a little while I am not really sure how long, then next thing I knew the sun was coming up. We sat and watched the sunrise and then stopped at a little coffee shop for a bite. We started heading back about 8:30am and although we were both a little weary we were having a really good time. The trip home had a bit quieter tone to it than the ride down, but it was still really enjoyable. We got back to Lynne's place and crashed about 11 and woke to the alarm at 5 so Lynne could get ready for work. I went back to my place when Lynne left for work and began cleaning up for my parents visit. I was so looking forward to it. (JK)

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Can you believe that President Bush is going around to other countries and telling them that the Democrats in our country are Nazis? That's right, this man who has worked so hard to destroy the American dream, foreign relations, and the US constitution and who has ruled as an absolute dictator is accusing the current democratic candidates of being Nazis. What is this guy up to? Does he not see anything past his rose colored glasses? This man has been the decline of the UN and the entire world, and yet stands up there an has the nerve to call other people Nazis. Okay, so I know we all thought at first that he would be an okay president for this country, but people we were really wrong.

I think the thing that scares me the most about this guy is the fact that he thinks that he is running a God driven mission. That is so bizarre. I don't know what God he is tapping into, but it surely is not a trusting loving God, that is for sure. This man is devious to the core. Undermining so many systems that were put in place in the country and in the world to help protect all people. And his evil counterpart Dick Cheney who keeps feeding the monsters ego, just to push through his own agenda. Part of me thinks that since this presidency has gone so badly, we should definitely be requiring IQ tests of each individual running for office. It is obvious, at least to me, that the only way this man made it through law school and the bar, was with the help of his father. In order to be a ruler of any country, you need to be able to think through your actions and the consequences down the road. I don't know whether Bush is this evil, confused, mentally ill, or just lacking the IQ, but there is definitely a problem with this man's thinking processes. It could just be that the power went to his head. I heard in a news report that immediately following 9/11 Bush wanted to do something, and the Congress wouldn't let him, so someone told him that he could do it anyway because in times of crisis the President is also Commander and Chief and has absolute power over the country. Well, I personally think this guy saw his opportunity to become a dictator and took it. He has made some really big mistakes, and thank goodness this guy can't run for office again. I mean I would like to think that he couldn't win again after all that has happened, but I know anything is possible.

I am not sure whether it will be Clinton or Obama who will run against McCain, but in my opinion to vote for another republican after this mess would be a sad choice. We definitely need a change, and I think the first woman president or the first African American president would have to be better than what we have now. As for them being Nazis or Nazi like, I think I will take my chances if the only alternative is another Bush.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

This time of year is really difficult. So much to do, and so little time for my writing. Writing is my outlet, the thing that gets me through each day. I keep a journal and write in it every day, at least a little something, but as far as my book, I am hoping to get more done on it this summer. I know that right now my focus needs to be on finishing up my classes and final exams, I just hate it, but that is the way it is. Lynne has been really struggling also. Her classes are a lot more advanced than mine, and the requirements are a lot more difficult. I often wonder, if I am struggling with everything now, how will I cut it when the classes become more difficult. I am not sure I am really good at this whole student thing. Although, I am taking a writing course next semester, in addition to my other classes which I am really excited about. It will be my first real shot at impressing a professor with my writing, and I am a little bit nervous about that. Sure, I wrote things in high school and the teachers there really did enjoy them, but sometimes I worry that my writing won't cut it on a higher level. I know that I can definitely handle the constructive criticism, but am afraid that too many people will just hate my writing, and since it is such a big part of who I am, I am afraid it will eat at my soul.

Lynne is truly an inspiration, she is an excellent person to talk to and bounce ideas off of. She is so smart, much smarter than I am, but yet she is not stuffy or boring, she is just the right companion for me right now. Here at school, sometimes, I feel a bit left out. I am not a drinker or a partier, and I enjoy quiet time and reading. I do enjoy playing interactive games on my Xbox 360 and have made a few friends doing that. Many would say that my life is boring, but I am just fine with the way things are. There are occasions in which I wish I were a bit more social, but sometimes I think that I am just an old man in a young person's body. Big excitement in my world is dinner and a movie with Lynne, or having a few friends over to play Mass Effect. This may sound a little hum drum, but I enjoy the things that I enjoy. I don't need drugs and alcohol to make a good evening. I can just hang out at home, and I am fine with that as well. Many may think that this doesn't sound like a typical college guy, and since viewing what is out there I can tell you I am far from typical, but I am what I am.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Well, I have finally broken the news to my mother that I am not going with them to Europe this summer. After a long conversation with Jeff, I just decided this probably wasn't the best time for a visit for either of us. He assured me he would come to Mom and Dad's for Christmas and we will see each other than. He has been struggling a little bit in school this semester, and quite honestly is dreading our parents visit in June. He told me that he was fine if I didn't come, but that he would miss my moral support, as he will now have to confront my parents on the fact that he now has his girlfriend living with him. My parents are a bit old fashioned when it comes to matters of the heart, but we are gradually trying to introduce them into the modern age. He knows, as do I that my parents are going to see his grades dropping as a sign that he should not be living with his girlfriend, but we both know that it is not that causing his grades to drop. In addition to going to school, he has been working a 40 hour a week job, and that is probably more the culprit than anything else. He is 22 and I think that if he wants to live with his girlfriend, he definitely should. Of course, I did advise Jeff to let Mom and Dad know over the phone, prior to their visit to give them a chance to warm up to the idea a little. I told him that telling them over the phone would be easier than telling them in person.

I did tell him that I had been thinking about asking Lynne to move in with me over the summer, but had not yet asked her. I don't want to push her, but I think that we both feel the same way about spending time together. I am just afraid that if I move her in too quickly, that the relationship will be strained and possibly lost. I can't even imagine Lynne and I not getting along, it seems like we get along pretty well. Don't get me wrong, we do have our disagreements, but we really don't fight. Many of my friends in long term relationships fight with their significant others all the time. I mean some can not go an evening with out having an all out brawl. I am really glad that Lynne and I don't have that type of relationship. I can imagine fighting all the time with someone you supposedly care about. I think there is something really wrong with that.

In any case, I am truly glad that Jeff is not upset with me for not wanting to come and visit over the summer. I think he understands that I am trying to do what I need to do and that coming over there with my parents will just pull me off track in my own life. I am really lucky to have a brother who is also my best friend. We can really talk about anything without judgment. Maybe, that is because we are really different, I am not sure, but I am very lucky.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Lynne called me on Thursday night and told me that she had to attend a seminar this coming weekend at a beach resort. She invited me to go with, and told me if I packed up tonight that she would pick me up at my place after class on Friday. I really just needed to get away for a few days, and I said it sounded great and I would see her then. When I got off the phone I packed my bag. I threw in some of the usual stuff and included a pair of dress pants and a nice shirt in case we were to go out to dinner. I packed my swim trunks and my personal items and was ready. I guess I didn’t realize how badly I needed a break, but the idea of this trip really got me going.

Well, Lynne picked me up on Friday afternoon about 3 and she drove me to a resort on the coast. It was a great day for a drive and we listened to the radio and sang songs and just really had a blast. When we arrived at the resort it was about 6pm and it turned out that there was no seminar. Lynne surprised me with a little trip to the Silver Shells Beach Resort for the weekend, just the two of us. I loved the fact that she took the time to make these special plans for us. Our room had a deck overlooking the water, and the room was so elegant. She had arranged to have a bottle of champagne there when we arrived, and we toasted our relationship and headed down to the beach. The wind was blowing a little but the sun and sand felt really warm and nice. It was a really great get away for a weekend that was stress free. It seemed like it had been a long time since I had felt so carefree. The waves crashing on the shore gave such a soothing touch to the weekend. Honestly, we didn’t do much of anything. We went to dinner at a little place nearby on Friday night and then camped out on the balcony just talking until the wee hours of the morning. We slept in on Saturday until almost noon, and then we hit the beach for a while and just relaxed in the sun. Saturday, we went to Ruth Chris’ Steak House for dinner and then went for a walk on the beach. We discussed Sunday, and Lynne talked me into taking her to play golf. She had never played before but she knew that I really enjoyed it and said that she wanted to learn. On Sunday morning we go up and ate breakfast. We packed our bags and checked out prior to making our 11:00 tee time. Well, I was a little unsure about teaching Lynne to play golf, but she did amazingly well. Lynne and I are just so compatible and everything that we do together is such fun. I am seriously thinking about asking her to move in with me at the end of the semester, but I don’t want to rush her. Well, I think I will just feel the situation out with her. I don’t want to pressure her, but I so enjoy our time together, I think that there would be nothing better than to spend all my free time with her.